I don't think Christians need to run from the truth, because we are right. If we just have courage to pursue truth, we will see that the truth will set us free, and will lead to a deeper and stronger faith, and a wider and more powerful impact on society. That has been my experience, and is my belief at any rate.
Well, Josiah, I offered you encouragement (note the middle of that word) by suggesting you were courageous to ask your questions. But apparently I was being too kind in an effort to be kind. You are immersed in the sort of group think that is now, and always has been, a danger not only to the members of the group, but to humanity as a whole. And that's the very kindest way I can put it. In short, being convinced that you are "right" and having that conviction reinforced in your seminary and church community surroundings, your opportunities to recognize where you're mistaken are almost entirely eliminated.
I'm sure it will not register with you at all that believers in thousands of gods and "faiths" have been equally as convinced or their righteousness as you are today, and have been equally able to present "testimony" and non-evidential arguments to themselves and to their peers.
Still, I understand and even empathize with where you're coming from, because in the past I, too, had the sort of religious certainty you display.
My hope for you is that one day you'll have the same good fortune I've had and begin to see the world and life with a broader perspective.
Those who know the most of nature believe the least about theology. - Robert Ingersoll